Archive for December 22nd, 2011

Let me start this rather personal post by saying that I am no Scrooge, but sometimes I get so overwhelmed this time of year by everything that is happening around me that I almost can’t stand it.  It hasn’t always been this way, but since my mom passed away a year and a half ago, the holidays just aren’t the same.

For those that don’t know, my mom was my closest female friend in the world, so not only did I lose my mom, I lost my best friend.  Mom and I loved Thanksgiving and Christmas and loved planning things together.  We would trade gift lists and go shopping at least once or twice.  She and I planned the menu and decorated together.  To say the least, there is now a big hole in my holiday cheer.

I have had to make myself get in the “spirit” both last year and this year and my husband has helped with that a lot.  If it weren’t for him, I would probably just hide in our house from the middle of November until the first of January to escape it all. 

Now, to look at me, you wouldn’t think this.  Our tree has been up since the last of November.  The gifts are wrapped and the Christmas cards have been mailed.  We have already had one big Christmas gathering and have a couple more to attend, but there are days that my heart just isn’t in it. 

Sorry for this downer post, but I just had to get it out.  I love and worship the “reason for the season”, but sometimes “The Holidays” are more than I can deal with.  Thankfully, the Son and the Father get me through this today and everyday.  Even when I am sad and missing my mom so much it hurts, I know she is in a better place and, one day, (hopefully many many many years from now) we will be together again!

Merry Christmas to all of my wonderful readers and blog friends!  I hope you and your family are blessed beyond measure!

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